Happy New Year!
- Simplymoe
- Mar 19, 2022
- 3 min read
Updated: Mar 23, 2022
"Every once in a while a little voice sneaks in my head and it asks me “what the fuck are you doing?!” It is the first Monday of the new year. Happy New Year readers! Cheers to 2022!"
On Assignment
“Last year I hung up my full time staff nurse position and traded it in for travel nursing... I’m on assignment in Dallas TX currently...”
I am currently writing from my hotel bed. I’m not sure what day it will be when this post makes it to your screens though. Last year I hung up my full time staff nurse position and traded it in for travel nursing. I’m on assignment in Dallas TX currently. I left My husband at home with our three children alone taking care of them. I took this position away from my home, family and comfort.
Right now the benefit of what my family and I will gain, outweighs the risks of me not being home. I would be lying if I said the guilt of leaving doesn’t creep in at times. Leaving my husband alone to make all the school lunches, do all the drop off’s and pickups. He has to deal with the tantrums and emotional woes alone. He will not have me there to bounce the kids energy off of and share the load. He will get to bask in the enjoyment of the good moments without me. Not to mention, the individual needs of my children and how only mommy has just the right fix for every situation.
Second Time Around
This is my second travel nursing contract away from my family. The first contract was the first time I had ever been away from my children for an extended period of time. There are so many challenges. The biggest challenge being blocking out the noise and that little voice that makes you second guess yourself. My oldest two kids are old enough to understand me leaving and are able to ask questions. I like to be open and honest with them.
Before I even took the first contract I asked my kids for permission. From there, I began to mentally prepare myself and my family for me to leave. I also have a three year old at home. During the first contract my three year old asked me, “mommy do you want to come to my house?” I was ready to pack my bags that day and go home. My second oldest called me several times having emotional breakdowns. It was simply just because she missed me. I was able to go home once a week and spend 1 day there. It may sound crazy but that 1 weekly visit was enough to keep us going. Ultimately, I did not regret my decision at all.
Year Of Trust
"Trusting ourselves is not always enough, even when it should be...”
Let’s acknowledge the fact that just trusting ourselves is not always enough even when it should be. As we creep into this New Year I want you to ask yourself one thing. How do you block out the noise and not second guess yourself and the decisions you make for the betterment of your family? Wishing you all a happy and COVID free New Year...
Until next time!
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